Better Today

July 30, 2006 Sunday evening 8:47 pm
I have been feeling better- the weather has cooled off, even rained a bit. Coincidence? Probably not. I think I feel the baby moving around at night but it really is hard to tell. Exciting though. I am not in my 15th week a little more than a third of the way through. I bought a scrap booking album today and I intend to get started. This little blog will make an appearance for sure. I think I will make this into a paper version. With more intimate photos. I can add the baby pics and tummy pics that I wont publish otherwise.

I’m not looking forward to work tomorrow, or the next day for that matter. But what has to be done has to be done. What seems important now will soon take on such different meaning.

Sleeping beauty?

July 29, 2006 Saturday morning 7:15am
I woke up to rain. Finally! The sky has been so heavy, putrid, HOT. It finally cracked open. All the green (and brown) outside are singing. Reaching for the clouds. I went out with some string and twine and tied up the tomato plants. Found some old scissors and cut off some of the crunchy brown. The Basil unsalvageable. My poor yard! Usually I spend much more time with my hands in the earth. Although looking at the backyard on any given day, you might not be able to tell. I love digging and planting and eating what I’ve grown. There’s so much satisfaction in that. I have been so tired the past few months with the heat and humidity making things close to unbearable. Last night I fell asleep at 7pm. On Friday. My poor husband. But I needed it. I woke up at 6:15 this morning ready to greet the day! So it’s 7:20 and I feel my old self, already productive somewhat, in the yard. I’m wearing on of Keith’s old black A shirts, covered in paint stains. Damp from the mist and rain. My feet are still covered with old grass clippings. I really shouldn’t be tromping about the house this way. But I think I’ll make myself a good breakfast and set to cleaning up this place while I still feel so good. You never know when you suddenly will feel struck and need to lie down.

Baby Pictures-13 weeks!

July 23rd, 2006 8:05 Am
I am finally posting the baby pictures from out last hospital visit. I wrote little explanations on the pictures so hopefully you can figure it out. The baby is too big (how exciting!) to get him/her all in one shot, so there are two pictures, one is a good picture of the body the other is of the head.



It has been incredibly hot. So hot that it’s making me sick. We have been looking for a little air conditioner for the bedroom but it appears all of San Diego is sold out. Bad planning on our part. Yesterday it was 110 degrees in La Mesa. Now that’s just ridiculous.

I am really starting to show now- I should get a picture of my belly soon. Kind of been putting that off! But really it exciting to actually look pregnant. This is the first week of my second trimester. I am really excited to start the second trimester. I expect to be greeted with more normal emotions and bucket loads of energy. I’ll let you know how reality meets my expectations.

Movin' and shakin'

July 18, 2006 Tuesday 8:01 am
We went to the Doctor yesterday and everything is going great! My blood work came back fine and blood pressure is normal. The baby is now the size of a tennis ball and we say her/him move around and could see the heart beat. It was amazing! Thrilling! Keith and I are so excited now for this new little baby- it gets more real and real. I laid in bed this morning and daydreamed about where the crib will go and what decorations we will have. I want to start buying diapers now, although I believe I will use a diaper service- maybe not. I have some research to do. Anyone have any input on diaper services?

I have a new picture to of the baby to post, but I left it at work- I’ll do it tonight.

It's too Damn HOT!

July 16, 2006 Sunday 8:15 am
It has been so hot! It’s the kind of heat where you wake up in the night sticking to the sheets and sweating on your pillow. It may be time for an air conditioner. At least for our bedroom. It’s nice that I am due in January, so I wont be too big in the heat of summer. As I sit here typing, I’m sweating- and I have a fan in my face. When you’re pregnant your body temperature runs higher naturally, so it’s a double whammy.

I got my hair dyed at a salon yesterday. I know that’s controversial. I decided it would make me feel better all around to have nice hair. My hair was dull brown with a lot of grey. Now it’s black with cherry red streaks. That big chunk of grey in the front? Now cherry red. I was assured by the salon that they all had their hair colored during their pregnancies and they color pregnant woman’s hair all the time. I am secretly worried that my Doctor will yell at me tomorrow. We have the second doctor’s appointment tomorrow. We are pretty excited. Keith is hoping we’ll get to see the sex- But I think we have to wait until like 18-20 weeks for that. I am hoping to hear the heart beat.

Room Service Please!

July 12, 2006 Wednesday 8:34 pm
Wow, I haven’t written anything in a long time. We have been busy getting ready for Doris’ arrival- and now she is here! Whew!

I feel like I have gained weight like a madwoman. I guess I should talk to my doctor about it on Monday. I need to start an exercise regimen and stick to it. I feel pretty embarrassed about the gain. However I am conflicted too. I try to let things just go with the flow. But when you are pregnant, people freely to judge you; what I eat, drink and look like are all open to criticism. Also the gain has been bad for me all over, my ankles hurt, I get winded going up stairs, and I’m uncomfortable in my own skin.

It’s all for a good cause though. I can’t wait to hold our baby! I will have plenty of time to take off any excess weight after the baby is born. And I know I will. Right now I am just host to a wonderful guest, who is using my body as a 5 star hotel. When s/he orders room service, who am I to say no? Maybe that’s the problem!

The fun has just begun

July4th 2006. 1:30pm
I have been really busy working and trying to pull the guest room together for Doris’ stay here. Every day I think I need to blog, but then something comes up. We are going to a barbeque later today at Judy and Ted’s. Another drinking holiday. You don’t realize how much drinking goes on until you have to quit. Sad how much I miss it. I wish I didn’t have the taste for it.

I made Keith stay home instead of going out with his friends to PB and now I feel like a bitch. I guess I didn’t make him, he has free will. But I don’t like the idea of him going to PB with the guys on a drinking holiday. I have no faith that he would be home safe and on time in order for us to go to the Mackay’s. And I know everyone would be sad if he wasn’t there. (although I’m sure his friends are sad too) He is dreading his upcoming birthday and lamenting about getting older. Crying about not spending time with his friends and having to work all the time. In the back of my mind, I’m like, “oh boy, you have no idea what we’re in for.” I don’t think it has set in yet for him what it’s really going to be like to have a newborn. The longer I am pregnant the more I think it’s too bad that men have no idea. Could not have any idea, what it’s like for the woman who is pregnant.

This is kind of a negative blog entry, isn’t it? I have been fighting morning sickness every afternoon, and I am grouchy, stressed and over tired. I have crazy dreams every night and my sleep is either interrupted by having to pee or the dogs tap dancing around on the hard wood floor. I need to relax.