Miles is 4 1/2 months old. I am good-well, kinda- I am going thru something where I need to constantly remind myself to calm down and change my thinking. I've been a little self critical. If I read the baby books I start to question my parenting style. Do I have a good enough routine? is he napping enough and well enough? Am I consistant enough. And then there's the whole time for me thing. There is no time for me. If I do have a moment, I need to put laundry away or load/unload the dishwasher, straighten the house. I have all these half finished projects (which goes against my nature and makes me crazy). I'm not sure what I can do to help myself. I have been practicing yoga almost every day- which I love. Miles will lay on the floor and do his tummy time with me. We hang out and go to mommy and me yoga, the library and the mall just to wander around. I guess I wish I could just get the house in some kind of order that made sense- it's never ending.
Miles is constantly changing- growing and learning. He is a true joy. I just need to remember to follow my instincts and let go of the unimportant, and all will be well.
Keith is working on the deck every day after work too- so we both don't get a brake from work until after dark-and in my brakes I tend to work. anyway- Such is life.
Miles is wonderful though, so much fun and a joy to be around. He smiles all the time and laughs out loud. He can roll from his tummy to his back. but not the other way around. And he has his two bottom teeth!- oh- he's awake from his nap- gotta run.
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Personally I believe that the word "Routine" should be replaced with "Rhythem". It seems to allow more flex for bad days. :) I too worried that we (or I) were not consistant enough etc. It is something that builds over time which is good, because it seems to gradually become more a part of your day to day rhythem (see I even use it now!) and as miles gets bigger is becomes more important.
I hope this doesn't bum you out but Ara and I went out on a date by ourselves for the first time in months and months and months on Tuesday. It was about a month and a half in planning and involved my mom leaving work at 2pm to drive up and watch the boys. "Me time" is a constant issue of being a parent of young children - and it too seems to ebb and flow. When I am really feeling it, I try to remind myself that it is just not really about me right now, but it will be again. I have to take some deep breaths remind myself that 'this too shall pass' and try to start that moment over again. I'm having hte hardest time trying to come up with drawings for my story over at RPP - Jacob seems to have radar for me being productive - and I've been um...creatively dormant for so long that I seem to need a lot of ramp up time that just doesn't exist.
Raising a human is big important work - consider that as 'getting things done and in order'.
REc. reading: "Everyday Blessings" written by Buddhists.
hey do you think it would be too much to ask that I actually spell "Rhythm" correctly???
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